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Feb. 28th, 2012

Confessions


That's from this morning.

So my therapist says I have Bipolar disorder and the Navy was correct in saying I had Borderline Personality Disorder. But they think it may be another personality disorder all together. I knew I was nuts, but I didn't know I was batshit!

The meds I don't mind so much. I like the Adderall, it slows down my brain. And the side effects are awesome! The mood stabilizer works well, and the antipsychotic makes my brain be quiet for once. Have you ever heard a room of chattering teenaged girls? Thats what I've been living with in my head since puberty. It sucks. It's noisy and annoying. Though, I don't think the meds change my personality or take away from what I really am. They just make me a more amiable person. Well, that's just my opinion of myself (which was never really good to begin with).

I'm still pulling my hair out and picking my skin. BUT not as much as I was. It was almost a daily thing, now it's a weekly thing. I still need to stop that, I've got bald places now.

And I went tanning today. Cancer be damned, it makes me feel good. Right now, that's a good thing.

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Feb. 27th, 2012

iPhone

I just found an iPhone app for lj.

This will make things a whole bunch more interesting!

Enjoy it, Devon, you're the only one seeing it

(i think)

Oh, and this:

I'm down 7 pounds from that. Thank Christ for adderrall.

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i want that space that skinny people have between their thighs.

and i want quiet mind.

but, down 7 pounds from last week. it was probably all water though.

or soda.

Sep. 19th, 2010

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i almost forgot about this old thing.
its funny, how far i've gone since i've been here last. i've gone all around the world, literally..

and now?

now i'm facing cancer. maybe it is, maybe it isn't. i'll find out tuesday.

Apr. 24th, 2007

i got a bad disease

off to the doctor tomorrow.

they want to take out vanessa's colon.
that sucks mucho grande balls.

i'm still leaving in august, if feels like forever away but
everytime i look at the calander, its creeping up fast...and i'm
still fat.

work is okay. got a raise for no reason which is super good
cause all i ever do anymore is sit on my butt and look for
crap on the interwebs.

and i want tokidoki bags and shoes and clothes.

now.

thanks gwen.

Feb. 19th, 2007

floatin in the hot tub with a gallon of bacardi

we had a nice ole party on saturday at boo's. fun stuff, wish you
could have been there, gwen!
boo almost got a tattoo on saturday, but now its moved to
3 march. i still wanna watch.

i'm not doing much, just still recovering. my freakin throat hurts.

somehow i managed to get thursday off. i love having payday off. not that
i actually get to spend or keep or save any of
that money, but its just nice. i have to
go to bank of america and open up my military acct. cause i don't
want to wait till the last minute to take care of things before
i leave. also need to see about withdrawing my 401k. i can use the money to pay
off my debts so when i go to RTC i don't have to worry
about paying any bills while i'm there... or at all any more really. i think i have almost 4,000 or more. i can't find my last quarter statment. i also need to see about how much i can get for my car since i plan to sell it.

anyone want to buy a red 2005 pontiac sunfire? there's nothing wrong with it
at all, runs great! only owned if for a year...

190 days left.....and it can't go by any slower :/

Feb. 16th, 2007

doom doom doom doom

there's comments on my myspace...hmmm
so i gave work my last day, 10 aug. i can't wait to get the hell out of here. not so much leaving san antonio, but leaving this crappy job. and its not even the job i hate so much, its the people i work with.

one can only take so much of picking up after everyone, and working double cause the others would rather talk on the phone with their boyfriends.
but if my recruiter calls me, god forbid!!! no personal calls allowed...

WTF!!!

and i still haven't gotten my tax return yet. next time i'm e-filing. fuck this slow connection shit!

♥!

Feb. 15th, 2007

speaking of tuna salad

...my pants are freaking falling off.
which is a good thing.

i re-did the lj, i think it looks mighty cute.
kitties are cute. 'specially kitties with googly eyes.

194 days to go, and i can't get out of here fast enough!

Feb. 13th, 2007

wouldn't ya know







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and you wonder why i joined the navy

Feb. 9th, 2007

o.O

i made it!!!
i'm a sailor!

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